_JINXED`_
10.01.1990
cursed`
_____ my wish Lists
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[x] leather corset top
[x] LEVIS skinny jeans
[x] red lenses
[x] black lipstick
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[x] YSL BABYDOLL
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[x] DAVIDOFF cool waters
[x] 'FANTASY' fragrance
[x] ANNA SUI foundation
[x] ANNA SUI blusher
[x] ANNA SUI lipgloss
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[x] LOUIS VUITTON wallet
[x] LIVING DEAD DOLLS
[x] CHIVAS REGAL 18
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[x] green iguana
[x] bearded dragon
[x] ball python
[x] milk snake
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[x] conch piercing
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[x] double tongue piercing
[x] dermal anchors on temple
[x] implants on my forehead
[x] leo tattoo on my forehead
[x] abstain from sex
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[x] one FINAL drug romp
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[x] kiss from william scorpion
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[x] get william scorpion's number
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[x] liposuction on thighs
[x] artificial dimples
[x] cosmetic surgery on eyes
[x] cosmetic surgery on nose
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[x] no more tears for mum & dad
[x] totally quitting my drug habits.
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[x] i wanna be happy again.
finally..
the drug queen
is finally overdosed after
4 years in the drug circle.
popped 2 white Ecstasy
Date: 21/07/2007
Location: Gelang Lor16. Hotel81
Time: 12:45am
Me, rusty and crystal.
in room202.
After i took 2 pills
i literally tripped into
the illusion.
No doubt it was the greatest time
i had.
Illusions and Hallucinations.
My vision was distorted
in many ways.
cartoonised rusty when he danced.
and he's really the greatest dancer
i've ever seen in my whole life.
Seeing tiled versions of everyone's face.
Spinning 3D images
all over the room.
The highest high i ever got
through illeagal chemical abuse!
Had a very very VERY great time
till 1plus in the afternoon.
Even in the quietness of the cab
i can still distinctively hear
very loud techno blasting
in my ears.
Reached home at 2pm..
i was purging my guts out
and
the hallucinating vision
and hallucinated hearing
stayed with me till 7pm!
Then.
My limbs got numb
and became weak.
My breathing became difficult
like my lungs were being compressed.
Then.
The feeling.
IM LOSING IT!
Losing my control
of the game i am so
professional in playing.
I SWEAR i can hear the bells
of heaven ringing in my head.
HOLY SHIT.
till around 9plus in the night
i can't take it anymore
and went to Changi General Hospital
with dad.
Gotten a jab on my thighs
to stop the nausea.
A Heartbeat graph taken.
Lungs X-ray.
A tube of tainted blood
to check for damaged muscles
from my arms.
2 pills of relaxants
for me to relax my tensed
and sesitive psychology.
Took a nap on the observation
ward for 2 hours and went home
with anti-nausea
and paracetemol pills.
Tooked a nap
ate a few meals
and am feeling better now.
thank god for not taking me away.
a chance to repent.
tearstaiinedd`
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